i could smell the sunshine and taste the rain last time we ran into each other on the streets. you were leaving and i was staying. memories of yesterday filled the clouds. i looked up and saw that one time in the park. i looked up and saw that one time in your room. i looked up and they all vanished. you said you were leaving and i said i was staying. i couldn’t bear the thought of good-bye, then you said ‘good-bye’. the morning glory came and the evening sun fell all to nothing. they said it would get easier. they said i would get stronger. i said i was sick of feeling this way. i drowned myself in school, in work, in anything except you. i drowned myself is lies, in lust, in anything except thoughts of you. some days are better than others, most days aren’t. most days i miss you, your smile, your movement, you everything. bruised and batter from the fall of vulnerability. terrifying to step out on the limb with thoughts that i’d fall again. they tell me it will get easier. they tell me i would get stronger. most days will get better, but most days are today.
One thing that I’ve always struggled with is the way that I look and sometimes feel about myself. Deep down, I know that I am beautiful both inside and out, but some days I just don’t believe it because there are so many other things in our society telling me otherwise. Since I was a little girl, I have seen advertisements either in print or on television, featuring a blond hair, blue-eyed, skinny-minny size 2 model. Now, I’m not a size 2, nor will I ever even be a size 10, but when I was growing up, that was “beautiful” to me. I have been feeding off of these false images of what a woman should look like for years and now that I am finally at the age where I can say and TRULY BELIEVE those images are wrong, I feel free. This is not saying that I still don’t struggle with my body image, or that I still don’t struggle with my self-confidence, this is acknowledging what is being portrayed in the media and not accepting it as the truth.
Today is Love Your Body Day. It is a day when attention is brought to woman and how they feel about themselves. It’s a day that accepts every woman, no matter what size. It is a day that asks woman to accept themselves and love what they see in the mirror.
Women deserve this day to be everyday and that’s why we’re fighting.